20 week ultrasound

I just came back from my 20 week ultrasound. The ultrasound tech said you look good. You are measuring on time at 20 weeks and 3 days and you are 12oz. I have to go back in a few weeks for another detail ultrasound because you are still so small and mommy is fat.

Your Aunt Fiki, your sister Ava, and cousins Michael and Gavin came to see you on the ultrasound. It is offical you are a GIRL. The tech gave all the kids bracelets that say "It's a girl!" Ava is beyond excited. This week your name is Tangled Rapunzel Little Mermaid Jello Gunter. :-)

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Sneak Peak

Yesterday while I was at work I talked my favorite ultrasound tech Rich into letting  me see a sneak peak of you before my 20 week ultrasound on December 27th. As much as I would love for you to be a "surprise" like your daddy does....I can't stand it. I want to know so I don't have to dwell on the perfect name for the opposite sex than I am having.

Well, you were head up and bottom down, so but your legs were wide open. Because of the quality of the image and the way you were positioned....he could not say 100%, but he said if he guessed you are a GIRL!!! He seen no sign of boy parts, but could not clearly see the girl parts either. Hopefully I will know for sure that you are a girl next week!!

Mommy will be happy with a boy or a girl, but I know Ava is going to be super happy for a baby sister. LOL I don't know how she will feel about you when you are teenagers though. I was thinking this morning as I laid in bed with all my babies and daddy what life will be like in 10 years. Ava will be nearly 5 years older than you. Your brothers almost 3. I wonder if you will be the baby or if I am crazy enough to have anymore. I guess only time will tell.

I am feeling little flutters about once a day sometimes less now. I look forward to seeing you again in a week.

18 week appointment

Mommy went to the doctor yesterday. You had a nice strong heart beat. I find out on December 27th if you are a boy or a girl. No flutter movements lately. I can't wait until I start feeling you kick everyday. Mommy has recently joined some groups on facebook. (I wonder if facebook will still be around when you are old enough to read this :-)) One is called the Rainbow Room and mommy has also been on a group called Triplet Loss Mommies since you brother died. There have been several moms on the group that recently announced new pregnancies. I am excited I have some (cyber) friends that will be able to support me during this journey to your healthy birth. It is heart breaking reading all the stories of parents that have lost a child before or after they were born.

I am totally paranoid that something bad is going to happen. I continue to pray against it every day. It is not just about your well being, but your brothers, your sister, daddy and myself. I have turned into a  total paranoid freak.

Note: your sister is "exercising" in the living room naked while I write this. LOL

I'm trying not to obcess with the fetal doppler to find your heart beat everyday. Just makes me more anxious when it taken me 30-45 minutes to find it. After the ultrasound in 2 weeks I have another appointment with the OB doctor on January 12th. I guess the next big update will be when I find out what you are. I keep thinking of the perfect baby name, but now I am trying to hold off until I know if you are a boy or a girl so I am not stressing about a name I will not need :-)

I love you. Stay safe and keep growing in there.

This weeks BabyCenter.com pregnancy info:
Head to rump, your baby is about 5 1/2 inches long (about the length of a bell pepper) and he weighs almost 7 ounces. He's busy flexing his arms and legs — movements that you'll start noticing more and more in the weeks ahead. His blood vessels are visible through his thin skin, and his ears are now in their final position, although they're still standing out from his head a bit. A protective covering of myelin is beginning to form around his nerves, a process that will continue for a year after he's born. If you're having a girl, her uterus and fallopian tubes are formed and in place. If you're having a boy, his genitals are noticeable now, but he may hide them from you during an ultrasound.

18 weeks!

Okay little baby we are 2 weeks from being 1/2 way there. Mommy thinks she felt the 1st flutter coming from you this past Thursday. I also finally got my doppler back from a friend. I found you on Saturday night. I had a hard time, but once I found you I could feel you moving away from the doppler pushing down on my abdomen.

Daddy told his parents about you on Sunday and I told a few more friends....secret is getting out, but the world does not know yet :-) Mommy has a doctor appointment this Thursday. Hope I get to find out soon if you are a boy or a girl. I love you!