18 week appointment

Mommy went to the doctor yesterday. You had a nice strong heart beat. I find out on December 27th if you are a boy or a girl. No flutter movements lately. I can't wait until I start feeling you kick everyday. Mommy has recently joined some groups on facebook. (I wonder if facebook will still be around when you are old enough to read this :-)) One is called the Rainbow Room and mommy has also been on a group called Triplet Loss Mommies since you brother died. There have been several moms on the group that recently announced new pregnancies. I am excited I have some (cyber) friends that will be able to support me during this journey to your healthy birth. It is heart breaking reading all the stories of parents that have lost a child before or after they were born.

I am totally paranoid that something bad is going to happen. I continue to pray against it every day. It is not just about your well being, but your brothers, your sister, daddy and myself. I have turned into a  total paranoid freak.

Note: your sister is "exercising" in the living room naked while I write this. LOL

I'm trying not to obcess with the fetal doppler to find your heart beat everyday. Just makes me more anxious when it taken me 30-45 minutes to find it. After the ultrasound in 2 weeks I have another appointment with the OB doctor on January 12th. I guess the next big update will be when I find out what you are. I keep thinking of the perfect baby name, but now I am trying to hold off until I know if you are a boy or a girl so I am not stressing about a name I will not need :-)

I love you. Stay safe and keep growing in there.

This weeks BabyCenter.com pregnancy info:
Head to rump, your baby is about 5 1/2 inches long (about the length of a bell pepper) and he weighs almost 7 ounces. He's busy flexing his arms and legs — movements that you'll start noticing more and more in the weeks ahead. His blood vessels are visible through his thin skin, and his ears are now in their final position, although they're still standing out from his head a bit. A protective covering of myelin is beginning to form around his nerves, a process that will continue for a year after he's born. If you're having a girl, her uterus and fallopian tubes are formed and in place. If you're having a boy, his genitals are noticeable now, but he may hide them from you during an ultrasound.